You are the answer to the question why do we love

I set out to buy new sneakers and some new work clothes today. My old sneakers legit had holes in the back and I really needed new ones. My work clothes that I wore last summer don’t fit me because they are too big. I ended up buying sneakers, some new work pants and paid my bills and I’m broke again. I didn’t even get any other work clothes because everything was in between on me and I didn’t want to go up if I lose weight then I’ll need smaller but the smaller size showed off my spare tire. I can wear a few of my tops for now since I work inside and it’s always cold but I really need to get my eating under control and get this weight loss show on track.

I really want to do this. Will I be able to do this? I wish I didn’t doubt myself so much. I’m going to talk to a friend and see if she’ll do it with me. I think that would be an awesome first 5k! 

I’m working 1-10 again tonight. I hate the shift it just really screws up my eating. I eat a big breakfast and leave for work at 12:30 so I have a little snack at 12ish then I have to take my break at 4:30 and eat my “dinner”. It just makes me feel all messed up I don’t know why. Good thing is we have a backroom full of stock so I’ll have something to do while I’m there if we are slow. 

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day! 

Welcome back. 

I love tumblr and having followers and mini relationships with people who I think are awesome. I know I haven’t achieved as much as a lot of you wonderful people and Im not claiming I have. I have stellar days and bad days and most days are bad. For me a good day is being able to get up out of bed and get myself to function. A really good day is being able to exercise( which may be a simple one mile walk or a few reps with my kettle bell) and eat as healthy as I can. I appreciate everyday I can get out of bed and for someone to tell me I’m a lazy screw up and a waste of a tumblr page doesn’t phase me. If writing hateful things to me makes you fee better for 5 minutes then send all the hate you want. I appreciate each and every follower I have I really do. And if you take the time to comment on a post or hit that little heart I appreciate you even a little bit more. But If I have zero followers and get to follow others who I look up to then tumblr has done the damn thing for me. 

My knee is hurting so the walk took me a long time to get a mile done. Once I got home I didn’t even want that smore anymore. 

His exact word were, “Hey girl can I get cha number . I like thicky thick girls so you are just my type”.

I kind of laughed it off trying not to cry honestly thinking it was just someone being cruel. He asked my co worker if I was single and told her he thought I was cute. It made me feel really self conscious for the rest of the day, I don’t know it just made me feel awkward. 

Hope everyone enjoyed the day! 

This is going to be a long day but a job is a job and $ is $.